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[drewbear]

My antidepressant is a godsend and I'm sure that without it, I'd be completely non-functional by now. But the problem is that now I'm terrified of being sad or in a down mood. I know that almost everyone just has "off" days when they're generally down, but now, when it happens to me, I'm terrified that it means that my meds are losing their effectiveness. I hate it. I want to cry for no reason and that terrifies me and I hate that I'm so afraid.

::bitter laugh::

Even when I'm "cured", my depression as a stranglehold on me.