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I am a creature of habit. I make ruts in my life and happily settle into them. Routine is my friend. And when I'm rattled out of my ruts by outside forces, I settle things down as quickly as I can.
Of course, this also means that it's very hard for me do break out of bad behaviors or situations, or to find my way to new or better habits. It's a strong reason for why I have difficulty meeting people; the prime prerequisite is going out to new places and trying new things.
...Actually, no, I need to correct that last statement. I don't have difficulty meeting people; I have difficulty talking to new people that I'm physically attracted to. I'm awkward in new situations, which when combined with being nervous around a hot guy, makes me not want to even try. Lost cause and all that. Oddly enough, I think that's part of the reason why I had such a good time at TBRU: I was with a group of people that I had known online for a while, so I had someplace to which I could retreat (metaphorical, people) so that I wasn't overwhelmed by all the new people.
Ungh. I don't know where I'm going with this, or even if I'm going anywhere.
Of course, this also means that it's very hard for me do break out of bad behaviors or situations, or to find my way to new or better habits. It's a strong reason for why I have difficulty meeting people; the prime prerequisite is going out to new places and trying new things.
...Actually, no, I need to correct that last statement. I don't have difficulty meeting people; I have difficulty talking to new people that I'm physically attracted to. I'm awkward in new situations, which when combined with being nervous around a hot guy, makes me not want to even try. Lost cause and all that. Oddly enough, I think that's part of the reason why I had such a good time at TBRU: I was with a group of people that I had known online for a while, so I had someplace to which I could retreat (metaphorical, people) so that I wasn't overwhelmed by all the new people.
Ungh. I don't know where I'm going with this, or even if I'm going anywhere.